When your body turns into a ping,

I have not completed the holidays, but had increased body weight 10 kg. Holiday is simple and fun, but after the holiday is over, would I still be happy? Hell yeah I have to try hard to lose weight.

hey, by the way. How's your holiday? :-D

Mine, is... yeah, a bit fun. Hahaha. Seriously I can't stop muching, so that's why I became a pig. Oh ya, 2011 is almost over, have you planned something to do, ppl? I have no plan yet to celebrate my NYE. Well, whether the pig allowed to celebrate the new year?

Dec, 25.

xoxo, 

Claudy

:(

IN THE MIDDLE OF CRISIS CONFIDENCE. 

Seriously I feel like a dump who just walk straight without destination:(

I know I am not that pretty. Not that smart. Not that lucky. Not that rich. Not that diligent. Not a prayer. I am far from the perfect person.

But I always tried. I always failed, too. How hard I prayed and tried, the results were not satisfactory. It makes me sad and feel very stupid, I can't make myself became happy, especially parents. This is the umpteenth time has happened, it proper for me to give up?:'(

Yea actually I just frustrated because my middle score test are bad. Indeed not all, but most of. I got sixty six for grammar:( fifty five for reading:( and other score which I predicted wasn't fully achieved good. Am I in the wrong decision to took my major? Oh God why am I always hard to get what I want? I don't wanna let down my mom&dad in learning on this college. I am 18yo then I don't want to play like a child, I've grown up and want to seriously pursue my goal BUT WHY CONDITION AROUND AND MY BRAIN NEVER SUPPORTED?! Is that because I am not blah blah blah? Is that perfect people who deserve?

I feel nothing. Not useful. I wanted to scream the loudest even though I know it will not affect anything. What else should I be proud of me, that people should see more of me. I am so regret with myself.