I deleted some unimportant postings from the past (around 2009 - 2011). Haha well, actually all of these postings aren't important anyway, but postings that I deleted were quite sucks. OKAY THEN, its the end of March already! 3months left like asdfghjkl. #sowhat.
Oh yeah, I'm still single same as 4years ago, but my heart was left me away. You know, I got broken anymore with the wrong one who I adore so much. Something crossed in my mind, "Oh God why" about 100times. I fall in love for someone and eventually really fall. Word life. Sadly, that was like the first time I'm love, unfortunately God said "no". Again.
Well, seriously I'm not in a good mood and it has been happening for a month. So many problems that I have and like I CAN'T FIND THE SOLUTION. Oh, no, I mean the way to escape from this. Beside the heart problems, yeah, college. I got 62 for grammar result, and that was so bad. How can the basic of English and I got only 62??? I realized my English doesn't good enough, but.... I should pay 900IDR to make up that course. Come on, that's quite expensive, right? I feel sorry to my parents :'( I promised to my self to get better in the second semester for all courses, and guess what? It's 180times harder than the last semester! A courses are really difficult, especially literature and linguistic. And an essay too, listening, grammar, almost all. I'm trying to survive and enjoy, aaaarrgghh heart can't lie. I'm tired. I'm tired to trying, lying to my self, especially to pretending everything is okay. Sometimes crosses in my head, can I hold on until I get graduated? God I love English and I have so many dreams, they are waiting to catch. Please help me :(
